poemsbymary:

Being invisible is probably the worst feeling in the entire world.

Do you know what it’s like when people who call you shy pretend not to hear you when you decide to speak?

Do you know what it’s like to say something and get no response, then cringe inwardly and wonder if you said it too quietly or if they just thought what you said was too weird to even acknowledge, and you don’t know whether or not you should awkwardly try to say it again or just pretend it didn’t happen and hope to God no one around you just heard you speak into thin air. Do you know what it’s like to express your feelings and get nothing in response? And then have people go and tell you that “You never talk! You should speak up more! Why are you always so quiet??” I’m not quiet. It’s just that you don’t give me the time of day to listen to what I have to say. Do you know what it’s like to crave attention so badly but then freak out when you get it because why would they be giving you attention? Obviously it’s because you’re so pathetic they feel bad for you, because they’re trying to follow their conscience and get the Good Samaritan award for the day so they can go right back to laughing about you later with their friends. Do you know what it’s like to finally build up confidence and then have no one around to see it? Do you know what it’s like to love yourself and hate yourself at the same time? Do you know what it’s like to be so alone? Do you know what it’s like? Do you??

boys-and-suicide:

I think the most important part of becoming a parent is understanding that your kid is not going to turn out exactly how you expect to raise them. Parenting isn’t a step by step rule book. It’s so much more complex than that and if the child grows up not wanting to be a lawyer, doctor, etc. don’t bully your kid into it. Also realize before having a kid to accept they could have health problems such as asthma, depression, or other sorts of deficiencies that might inhibit them from doing certain things. They may not even have the expected “straight” sexuality. The child might be born gay. If you’re not willing to accept your child for who they are and what they want to do, then don’t have a kid. Please. They will be rebellious at times, perhaps more often than others, they’re going to struggle at times, perhaps more often than others, and it’s important to keep giving them love. It will be hard if the child shuts you out or gets involved in drugs or alcohol. Just remember your kid needs to make mistakes and you can’t be the perfect parent. Some children do fail in life down the road and the best you can do is be there to help them. Don’t you ever fucking kick them out, scream at them so bad it traumatizes them, or neglect them. Although parenting is entirely up to you, please understand it will be difficult, you will make mistakes, but just remember to keep giving your kid love. A child without love is a lonely child in such a huge world. They will have trouble coping with problems, life, and people. And for the love of God, please don’t do what my mom did and walk out when things got tough and do not scream things like “I wish you were never born” “you were a mistake” and “go to hell” I will never forget these things my own mother said to me. I know how badly people want to have kids, but sometimes you’re not ready to have them. If you’re an active alcoholic, drug abuser, have anger problems, depression, unstable mood swings, please don’t have kids. Please. Get yourself under control and stable before having a kid. Kids need stability and unconditional love. If you’re going to be passed out drunk, moping around sad all the time, screaming at relatively unnecessary things, then your kid will see this and the results won’t be good.